Sunday, February 14, 2010


I've been avoiding blogging about a pretty major and crazy day from back in December. Until Yesterday, I dont think I was totally and completely at peace with what had happened.
So, Yesterday Damon and I went out to Dinner and a Movie with 3 other couples for Valentines Day. One of the couples I didn't know, and as the night progressed we got to know each other and this event from December came up. Come to find out that I had heard about this couples story a couple of years ago.

BASICALLY, she is the co-founder of the Non-Profit Organinzation "Lanee's Legacy". ( I have a blog buttom on my sidebar, go check out their blog). Their Organization is for mom's who lose their babies. Rayel and her partners have all lost children. Rayel lost her Son Garrett, at three DAYS old.

Their Organization helps Mom's who deliever their babies and then basically dont get to take their baby home with them. Lanees Legacy provides Baby Boxes for mom's to take home with them after their discharge from the hospital. The boxes contain all sorts of sweet rememberence items, and it provides the mom's with a place to bring blankets, hats, and whatever sweet thing their baby came in contact with home with them.
Rayel, was SO wonderful. She told me about her organization and how when they experienced their loss of their child, that all she could hang onto was HOPE. In the boxes they give to these moms, it usually has a necklace like this one:

Rayel was so sweet and brought me a necklace to remind me their is HOPE.

Now my story is not even compariable to these women and lossing a child. I can't imagine the pain of that experience. But I have experienced 2 miscarriages, and on Decemeber 1, 2009 I experienced the worst pain I have EVER had in my life when I found out I had an Ectopic or Tubel pregnancy.
That day was SO scary for me. I had been in pain all night long and ended up going in for an Ultrasound that next day for them to tell me that I was about 7 weeks pregnant and that it was implanted into my right fallopian tube. Within 3 hours I was IN surgery to have it removed, and LUCKY for me they didnt have to remove my tube! Needless to say, the next two weeks were hard, and I was back in the ER after vomiting for 12 hours straight because of the anestetic, which left me severly dehydrated.
SO it wasn't fun at all. Miscarriages are not fun. Emergency Surgery is NOT fun. There for trying to get pregnant and have a family of our own was becoming NOT FUN.
Until I talked with Rayel I had hid my emotions and didn't say much about how I was really feeling. I was SAD, angry, confused, and really hadn't had much HOPE about getting pregnant and being able to STAY pregnant. Rayel was so great. Even though I didn't experience anything close to her experience, she made me feel SO much better about our situation, and my hardship with these 3 pregnancies. I have been feeling so down about being a mom. Because I want it SO badly. Rayel gave me my HOPE back. I am eternally grateful for her kindness, her soft spoken words, and for my beautiful necklace that reminds me of the sweet spirits that are waiting for me some day. I HOPE so badly that day is soon, but until that Im at peace and will always have that HOPE.
Thanks Rayel.

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Catching Up

I have ALOT of catching up to do!
The last couple of months have been busy as usual.

First and formost! I finally took my State Nursing Boards, and am officially a Registered Nurse! I can't even begin to describe how great it feels to be DONE with school and finally in my career!
The day I graduated, which was also Damon's Birthday, we had a little party and get together with friends and family.
I had Katie Tolman, Rachel Jorgensen's Sister in Law create these fabulous cakes! A Nurses Cap for my Graduation, and a big old fashion Dumb Bell for Damon's Birthday(see below).
They were Awesome! I loved them!

Ali and Sarah were in my Nursing Class! We got to graduate together that night! Love those girls!

Damon and Me after Nursing Graduation.

These are pictures from Christmas Eve. Its tradion every year to go over to my Moms side of the Family on Christmas Eve and then open Pajamas.
This year Chris got PJ's! He's offically apart of our family in exactly two weeks!!!

Damon's Birthday Cake!

We also had Chelsi's Bridal Shower this past month! I let her put more pictures up on her blog, but this was another cake I had Katie Tolman make for the Shower! ITS AMAZING! I dont know how she does it!
Chelsi and me at her Bridal shower.
The last few months have been mostly focused on Chelsi's Wedding! I can't believe that it is 2 weeks away! We have alot to do!